We are never whole we're born incomplete -- naive, suspicious, trusting, selfish, hungry, afraid dependent on the mercies of others being made everyday in their multiple shapes and shadows, a loosely knotted ball of myriad prejudices, anxieties, mixed memories and learning to call it our "selves" We spend our middle years trying to be whole 'again' chasing a delusion of constructed realities unrequited desires abandoned dreams gather memories, as if they'll last us a lifetime memories that start changing the moment they're born like us The wisdom that we think we get, as we grow old is a piecemeal, primal understanding of our incompleteness our bone deep acceptance that we are a constantly changing part of a mythical whole -- not just a larger whole of another evolving incompleteness, we call humanity, fractured into teeny tiny shards but a whole that we are in what we leave behind on the merciless canvas of time -- as we shed memories lose faculties and people integral to our very idea of ourself We're lucky if we can feel whole looking back at the million holes in our tattered devolving self ready to be one with the larger void of completeness ...
Category: creative
Which one are you?
Only a few speak up, now many choosing to stay silent while most justify and some speak, just to go silent A time will come when those staying silent will join those who justify, those who justify will turn into killers, while the killers giddy with joy will dance on the dead bodies, and will finish off those who burst into tears after witnessing it – cry in horror, or shiver in terror – and will occupy all of the spaces That is why the tribe of those who speak up should never shrink and of those who stay silent should never grow Which one are you? You decide. (A loose translation of Vishnu Nagar's poem - Kinme ho Tum? )
Translation: Lohe Ka Swad (The Taste of Iron)
The Taste of Iron
by Hussain Haidry
(A loose translation)
A blacksmith after reading
Sudama Pandey “Dhoomil’s” poem
"The taste of Iron"
went straight to a stable,
and started asking the horses
"what's the taste of iron?"
Some, neighing, said:
a bit bland
a bit hot
a bit bitter
some, tapping their feet, said:
like spit
like blood
like pus
Some, pulling on the bridle, said:
of enslavement
of helplessness
of anger
The horses started shouting
over one another
causing a ruckus in the stable
The blacksmith picked up a hammer
hit a horse on the head
and asked,
in the ensuing silence:
“OK, now tell me,
in soft voice,
in clear language,
peacefully, and lovingly,
in one voice,
what's the taste of iron”
--
Hussain Haidry is a well known poet, lyricist, and a prominent voice on Twitter. Please follow him on Twitter(@hussainhaidry) if you don't already. Hussain's original hindi poem can be found at the link below, and I'd urge you to read it, if you know Hindi. I'm, at best, an amateur at translation, and the poem reads much better in Hindi. The poem title is based on these lines from Dhoomil’s eponymous poem: लोहे का स्वाद लोहार से मत पूछो, उस घोड़े से पूछो जिसके मुंह में लगाम है “Don’t ask the blacksmith the taste of iron ask the horse who carries the bridle in its mouth”
https://rajkamalbooks.wordpress.com/2020/07/15/hussainhaidrypoems/
The Last and Final Call
The urgent cacophony
of the last and final calls —
at the airports,
the offers in my email,
the alarming notifications …
as if, the world
is about to end
and it is,
in a way,
possibly in a very very real way,
but those warnings
fall on deaf ears
of the collective humanity
that prides
in its “rationality”,
we shrug
for the world does not rest
on the shoulder’s
of either one of us
instead we race
to board the plane,
run like hell
our precious duty-free purchases
clinging to our bosoms,
or we grab
that deal
eighty seven percent off
all year around
but ending tomorrow,
everyday
BREAKING NEWS,
#NowTrending,
“you must see this now”
‘cos you HAVE TO
get infected
by the intoxication of the viral,
the tyranny of the topical
the blaring horns,
real and metaphorical,
the beeps, the alarms
the flashing notifications,
God forbid
if you were to miss
something life changing that just happened
on one of your thirteen
pseudo-social networks
and we wonder
why we can’t feel anymore
a sense of panic
for a world
boarding on a flight
with a one way ticket
to hell
is it because
we hope
that there will be
one more
last and final call?
अभिलाषा
मज तख्त नको
मज रक्त नको
धर्मांध मज विध्वंस नको
श्वास हवा
सहवास हवा
अथांग तुझा विश्वास हवा
तलवार नको
संहार नको
बेबंद मला अधिकार नको
उपहार नको
सत्कार नको
मज स्पर्श तुझा हळुवार हवा
वाद नको
मज क्रोध नको
शांत मला संवाद हवा
मज दान नको
सन्मान नको
मित्रांचा आधार हवा
बुद्धीचा मज माज नको
नशेचा मज नाद नको
मज सृजनाचा उन्माद हवा
निर्भीड मला आवाज हवा
उत्क्रांतीचा आश्वास हवा
मज आज उद्याचा थांग हवा
This Is Not Who We Were
this is not who we were … it's a lament I hear but that's so wrong this is who we were this, and that it's just that we chose to be this we lose that which we stop fighting for we become that which we stop fighting it engulfs us we become part of it like bacteria in the gut of a giant being just another cell one among the billions time is circular no, not in the literal sense it's just that we’ve already seen these battles play out again and again pixels on the canvas of time we choose to remember only the dots where our better angels prevailed meanwhile, all along the demons inside us have been winning with an almost boring regularity our glorious pasts where those who wrote the history had a very different life, different laws, even while others had their tongues cut literally and figuratively we who can’t be certain of the now are certain of the glories of the past -- with despots and kings multitudes enslaved histories written in the blood of innocents no! this is who we were time and again and this is who we will be time and again … the only question is what do we want to be? here and now? how do we want this brief pixel to look on the canvas of time? a pixel that we own, fleetingly before it stands, eternally for what we are …
In Memoriam
It’s strange how they —
the poets, the writers, the painters
sometimes have to die
to make us aware
of their existence
Even if we knew them
sometimes it takes
their obituaries
for us to go back
to their works
sifting through bookmarks —
that graveyard of information
See the irony?
as the artist is laid to the ground
we exhume their work
giving it the attention
it always deserved,
like when we were busy
in petty arguments
and topical nonsense,
in cheap hedonism
that leaves you empty, drained
when we could have filled
those moments with joy,
with awe, and inspiration
touched by the only divine
that there is
but alas, we wait
till it’s too late
and never get a chance
to tell them
life’s worth living
because of them …
and maybe
the curse we live with
the curse that makes us barren
creatively
is because we don’t
value the artists
till they, on a silent night
pass away, like any other mortal
just as they are reborn
in our mind-spaces, as immortals
could it be that
we deserve our hell
because we don’t care
for the slice of paradise
given us?
Narcissus 2.0
Mirrors everywhere
in every direction,
every dimension
curved, warped, broken,
fluid, distorted —
distorting …
You look
at your myriad reflections
trying to stitch together
the real you
What if,
Narcissus had fallen in love
with himself
that wasn’t really him?
What if it wasn’t love
but the idea of being in love
with oneself —
one’s recreated self,
stitched back
from a thousand reflections:
each distorted
in its own way?
The inner you
that we all are
so obsessed with —
it feeds on these reflections
it sees itself through those eyes,
those distortions
and contradictions
Like a huge jigsaw puzzle
with pieces that don’t quite fit,
with overlaps that don’t quite match;
but we still force fit,
because we are eager to see
the whole picture
in its illusory unity
the id
the self
the ego
the aham —
a quilt of reflections
from mirrors we have chosen —
for they tell us
a nice story
We’re Narcissus
who kept on checking
reflections in a pond after pond
till he found one
that made him look
ravishingly good,
and blamed it on Nemesis.
Muse, Interrupted
Memories and Us
Only false memories can be so vivid,
to seem unquestionably real …
false, or manufactured, or wilfully distorted,
maybe it’s the effort —
to invent them out of thin air,
to recreate them, as per our whims,
to mold them into what we wished they were —
is what makes them seem more vivid
than real memories …
The real memories
that are struggling
to hold on to the last straw
as they drown in an abyss of oblivion
bereft of colors,
their once unforgettable scent fading,
the fabric of their real slice of reality
ragged, and tattered …
their very being turning into an apparition
No, it’s not us who need memories to survive
that’s a lie
planted by memories,
a survival tactic,
for it’s they who need us
without us, they are orphaned,
obliterated